Feb 20, 2010

this is just my thought


to be exact, i've got a lot of things, i wanna write it all down here. as time passed by, i forgot almost about everything. haish~ nyanyok eh. and yet, lot of drafts had been safe. but idk, why i didn't post it. weirdo~ maybe because, half of my way writing, i forgot what's the main point and what else to write down. well hey, march is around the corner. gaaaaa~ crazy huh. i saw 2010 calendar yesterday. and i was like, wooo! 2oth feb 2010. aiyooo. tup tap-tup tap, 8 months from now, its gonna b my 21st bday. i've a lot of things i wanna do b4 my 21st bday. but will i?

btw. have u ever believe, and i mean. u urself, u wanna do lot of silly things, and maybe few of wrongdoing things, at least once in a lifetime. well hey, i do! as my ages getting older, that's mean time getting lesser than before. fast, fast, fast aqilah! do whatever u wanna do whenever u've got the chance. and i just promised myself to publish this post no matter how empty and crapping it is T__T

i did a lot of mistake too. naaa, u wouldn't care to know. or maybe if u do, u wouldn't believe what i've done my whole life. haha. lots of mistake, fun silly things that can cause u one thing - sin. and there's no turning back. but it's ok. i wouldn't care less to regret everything. life goes on bby! or i'll die regretting everything. haha. oh yeah! but at least, i know what i've done is wrong, and keep remind myself, what to do, and what shouldn't.

btw, talking bout myself. i went to the clinic for the 3rd time last Thursday. awww~ injection. idk what's wrong. Dr Mariam was sooo worried and she asked me to go there again, if i'm still sick today. yes, Saturday. erm, i guess there's no fever, just flu and throat pain. blood test eh Dr? huhu. no need kot. i have to be totally healthy a.s.a.p. shooting is around the corner! owhhh... i'll be outtt for shooting from monday - wednesday. ala. KL je pun. haha.



since, it is 2oth feb 2010, lemme recall few things that happened lately.

- owh en.nabil. met mama & abah, i mean like officially dinner - 18th feb 2010. awww. i laugh a lot. habis rahsia negara abah buka, rahsia diri wkt kecik, and there's erm... FUNNY JOKE of the year accidentally created by abah. hahahhahahahaha... i'll tell later.

- 19th feb 2010 - lots of things 2 b settle down. yup. really bz. i went to the college with abah & nabil, and straight to damansara. abah maw cari butik adidas semata - mata. cari brg golf adidas. huhu... he bought a shirt, and we had tea at the curve, and, back home.

- 13th feb 2010 - i met his fmly, officially. cuak x hingat! yo lah. selalunye those guys yg meet up my parents. ble recall blk, the only guy yg i meet up with his fmly was ONLY - 1st love. haha. and it was a very long time ago - 7 years ago. soooo... u should know how gubra i am. but it ends up with a smile on my face. mama + ayah u baekkk sgt!!! ;)) x cuak da jmpe mrka 2nd time hari tu~

- 14th feb 2010 - i didn't celebrate it, as usual. buttt, awww, i had great time. like really2 great time! thanks 2 all those 6 of u. esp u syg! i really3 appreciate it. i know u're working hard to do the best for us. i can see that, clearly. thanks again!


and what else? hurm. ok. random2!
- did my hair treatment and new hair looks for 2010. *like likey love*
- went to sg congkak / gabai. gileee skeee. oh i just love water. and fresh air.
- did my resume for practical. practical weyh! 12th april 2010 - 4th july 2010.
- selesai cat bilik dgn jayanya. thanks to mama + kak sally. much appreciated!
- joined college bowling tournament on 3rd april 2010. i was absent, but my friends just put down my name. haha. with miraghee + alyn + bhai + abg zul. group name - don't raba2. haha. x tahan korang nih!
- i'm almost done with my UIA english class. whoaaa. nak graduate suda *wink wink*
- 16th feb 2010 - kak long bersalin anak ke 4! another hero! x cukup bulan but so far ok.
- i'll be away from Mlysia from 11th march - 22nd march insya Allah. ;))


i was thinking of going to any beach since weeks ago. i don't know. i just really want it. mama & ayah (referring to his fmly) invited me to join them at PD today. but it seems i can't. abah dah kuar g main golf since 730am td lg. haha. and mama wanted to go to jln TAR this evening. but maybe, just maybe, we're gonna go to PD for a while tomorrow. IF only flight abah blk srwk malam esok. if x dpt, x pergilah. rushing woo~

and last night, oh, not really night, 4am - thinking of my future. degree, work, fmly. oh god. that's scary. like really. what is going to happen to a super duper lazy totally pampered girl like me. aiyaaa! i wanna b somebody. somebody means - i achieve everything i've been dreaming of. no need to be fofular or super duper rich. no no no. i don't need that. i just need to fulfill my target. and u know 'try to do new thing list' is never gonna end. owh owh~

aqilah. what goes around comes around aite. so, plz, be nice to everyone. i mean, keep on being hard, but be nice as well. naaa, i don't know how to explain that, but me myself, get it. haha.

the no 1 things i love bout him - he RESPECT his parents so much. and my parents as well. ble wa ade conflict gwa dgn mama or abah, he'll b the one who keep on protecting mama & abah. huuu. i know syg. i know they love me. u know i'm ashamed of myself when i can see how u treat ur parents and mine. at least, i'm trying to remind myself more bout them since i met u. hee. thank u!

keyna! sorry i couldnt' make it today. hoping to see u again later. ;)

to friends. i miss you. yes u. but sorry, i've never told u. all i wanted to say. cuz sometimes, u should realize a thing as well - it's not i'm the only one who changes, u've change too. but still, i've never 4get u too. u should know that. sometime i wanna wish u good morning / night, but, i just keep it to myself. i wanna say hye! but, i just smile. maybe. u can hear my heart saying 'i love u'






Feb 10, 2010

random facts and i wanna go to KLIA!


nak sehattt!!!


huhu. semalam aku agak mcm cacing kepanasan. napekah? memikirkan diri yg tak sehat lg pdhal dah nak msk hari ke-3. oh bosan! aku try peluhkan diri. lepas update blog sampai 5am semlm, aku x tdow. aku basuh kain, jemur kain, aku pasang meja kecil merah yg baru beli di ikea hari tu, aku sapu lantai bilik, aku pasang sticker dkt cermin toilet, hurm, apa lg tah, bnda2 ringan je. tp ends up aku rasa letih melampau. lama dah aku x demam cam gini ni. antibiotic tnggl 2 biji je T__T. so aku pun tdow kejap 1130am 1il 1230 pm. lunch~ pun sama je letih semcm dia.

owh ye. teramat sgt nak gi KLIA. maw hantar momoyo + hawa! mereka maw fly sudah. sob3. tp kul 4 dkt airport, 730pm dah boarding? gaaa~ sedang ku usahakan lg. kalau ada rezeki, adalah. pelik kan pagi2 buta mcm gini pon internet mcm siput...dah register streamyx pun pnya lah lmbt die org nak pasang! wahlaa. cam gane nak maju business. asyik pk nak kaut keuntungan je. but, what am i expecting? worlds nowdays it's all about the money. ish3...


btw. tiba2 menggatal nak bgtaw few facts, 2 b frank, it's about me.
1 - cpt rasa nak muntah ble tgk org lain muntah. and cpt nak muntah tgk tandas awam kotor.
2 - even tak tahan nak muntah tgk tandas awam kotor, dr sekolah rendah ada 1 habit pelik yg mama baru taw tahun lepas. iaitu mesti masuk each toilet room yg kotor, yg tak dipam, sambil ttp hidung, sy akan pamkan. ye. tak suka kotor2 tuh!
3 - taw x kalau bihun sy mesti makan berkuah, mee kuning mestilah bergoreng, cuma kuey teow je special, berkuah dan bergoreng telan semua.
4 - sukeee gi pantai!!! main air, pasir. tp suka mandi sg & air terjun! kalau mandi pantai tiba2 tuh mmg miracle yg sgt jrng berlaku.
5 - sy bkn jenis suka beli / pasang lilin2 nih dlm bilik. tp sejak semlm ye! itupun 1 lilin yg berjaya membuka hati selama hidup ni. tindra - ikea. smells like vanilla.
6 - perfectionist - in organizing things! bnda no 2 yg blh buat sy marahhh amat even bnda tu simple sgt. no 1, biasalah, timing. (tak mengenal siapa atau usia) haha.
7 - kalau tak makan licin tu, org yg dah kenal sy, akan pelik. hua3... tak kisah lah dgn siapa pun!
8 - burger / spaghetti / serunding - lg suka yg daging lembu. tp chicken chop ttp no 1~
9 - kalau sy diam, sy berfikir. sekecil - kecil bnda sampai sebesar - besar ciptaan. mcm2 lah!
10 - kalau sy marah. 2 bnda yg sy sedar kerap buat sy tersenyum + sejuk = kucing + kiddies.



oklah. sudahlah tuh! bnyk plak terkeluar. u, best of luck exam! thee. baru lepas azan subuh. jom solat! ;)) fine. aku dah solat, baru nak post. ;P





Feb 9, 2010

when the blue sky is over my head

350am. mata ku terbuka. terus aku bangun, menuju ke laptop. gaaa. bertuah pnye budak. adatlah org demam, cuma kali ni demam ni special skit. selalunya demam aku just flu + throat pain. as for this time, ++ berat kepala & badan penat. pinggang aku terasa cpt sakit. apakah?

akhirnya. 8 feb 2009, blog ini di-private semula buat kali ke-2. owh ye. atas keselamatan diri an? anggaplah beberapa hari yg baru berlalu, aku dirundung sakit yg pelik. kemarahan yg melampau apabila berada di rumah. tp aku sendiri sedar, ia melampau. seolah - olah itu bkn aku. diiringi dgn tangisan aku, doa abah dan mama, ustazah, aku makin pulih. keluarga mengambil langkah berhati - hati. anggap saja semua kerana akibat permainan syaitan yg dilakukan oleh manusia lain. siapa? biarlah Tuhan saja yg balas.

hurm. gaya penulisan BM aku agak cliche~ haha. poyos. hampir 5am, masa 'call time' mama. 'call time + wake up time' = sama je kan? i think so. btw. skrng final sem, sem pendek. mahu mati jg pk maw cari sponsor. kebetulan mcm2 nak jd skrng. kdng aku rasa bersalah dgn ahli kumpulan FYP (final year project) sbb aku rasa beberapa kali da aku excuse dr meeting. atas sbb fmly & kesihatan.

berckp ttg fmly, 2 feb 2010 - kereta mama kena pecah. samun / rompak. wkt pulang dr sekolah, 240pm, kurang 5 km keluar dr sekolah, di traffic light. lampu merah. kereta mama berada di tengah. tidak di dpn mahu belakang, tidak di kiri mahu kanan. mama ambil salah 1 hp, hp fmly ke luar dr handbag, utk call abah. saat itu, bunyi kuat kedengaran. cermin di seat pemumpang sebelah mama, dipecahkan. lantas seorg pemboceng motosikal memasukkan separuh badannya ke dlm kereta dan mengambil handbag mama. sekelip mata, penunggang itu memecut laju. pengguna jln raya lain? hanya kaku melihat mama menangis dan mama memandu setelah lampu hijau.

bercakap ttg hidup sepanjang 2010 ini, sungguh aku rasa 2 bulan ini dah terlalu bnyk mengajar aku ttg erti hidup, dlm aspek yg baru. org yg syg dtg dan pergi, kuasa Allah, dunia yg semakin kejam, oh pembetulan, manusia yg makin kejam, dan terlalu bnyk lg. ok. tiba - tiba rasa lapar. baiklah, the bright sight of what i've been through so far - new friends. a lot of. lya, ainie, ajin, yan, yana, and almost 20 of them. and also those uncles, aunts, juniors from IIUM english class! ta-daaa. almost 20 of them too. i've learnt bout lots of new words. yarrr~ it's the teenagers word nowdays. haha. and and, i begun to love maggie goreng. what else? bnyklah! i like ;))

btw, i would like to thanks those who r still there 4 me, well basically i'm just too complicated + weird. diff than others kot. thanks to those who was being so patience esp fmly, and not to 4get, u, nabil. talking bout nabil... hurm. a simple explanation here - he makes me happy. that's it. if u do really know me, u know that i've this kind of attitude - i dont simply judge ppl. i don't. and i don't choose to be with who, basically depending on their look, status, material stuff, or anyhting else related with not-knowing-their-inner beauty. so, stop pointing ur finger at me as if i'm always the sinner, cuz, i'm kinda know, everything i do, everything i choose, and everything happened for a reason. and to be exact, the main reason of not being judgmental - cuz i'm no one to judge ppl.

wahhh. makin lapar. see. demam - demam pun lapar. sbb tu tak pernah kurus kalau demam. just ni pun tekak payau2 skit, itu yg kurang mkn. perut ttp bagi tanda mcm biasa. haha. btw, hp maxis hari tu kene block dr 5th january, baru ok 1st feb hari tu. nape lame sgt? sbb autobill stuck. nape stuck? sbb abah tukar creditcard, so, die pending. haha. owh. regarding to mama's trauma selepas kereta kena pecah, abah ambil EL n blk KL last 3th feb til 8th feb just now. abah thanks 4 secret recipe, i've been craving for it quite a long time! and thanks 4 those u-called-it-apron-dress. haha. i love that dress ok abah, even when both u and mama called it 'apron' gaaa~ thanks 4 everything lah abah. ikea stuff, meatballs, and not to 4get, 2 hours karokae at wangsa walk.

since it is almost 5am, and my eyes are getting red, idk it's a sign of sleepy or fever, haha. ok, that's all for now. or else i guess i wouldn't stop writing. hee. take care ppl. choose ur path to live ur life. till then~