Oct 31, 2009

a minute b4 the end of the day

bukan ceramah agama / motivasi
cuma asam garam hidup


dulu... wkt kecik.
sy pernah tanye ustazah. i was 9 back then.

uztazah...
kenapa kita ada 10 jari?
kenapa dlm bnyk2 nama yg ada, sy ditakdirkan bernama 'aqilah'?
kenapa bila sy rasa nak gerakkan jari, jari sy bergerak?
kenapa muka sy ditakdirkan jgk, mcm ni?
macam mana Allah tentukan... dan ciptakan semua?

ustazah ckp...
dari sudut sains, nanti mcm2 awk belajar...
dari sudut agama, awk jgn pk terlalu melebihi batas.
nnt boleh buat awk gile. lagipun, tu semua kekuasaan Allah.

i was a student of St.Mary kuching, sarawak...
and, uztazah. ustazah asmah. if i'm not mistaken =]]



i heard another ulama' said ;
lelaki yg baik utk wanita yg baik



i asked abah.

"habis tu. kalau wanita tu baik, baik sgt, tp dpt lelaki jahat jg, kenapa? lelaki pun sama. lelaki baik, kenapa dpt wanita yg jahat? kenapa... lelaki/wanita baik tu x dpt wanita/lelaki baik jgk?"

abah told me.


tuhan tu adil. maka. insya Allah lelaki baik utk wanita baik. tp, utk golongan yg baik tp masih dpt suami / isteri jahat tu, mereka terpilih. mereka terpilih utk diuji oleh Allah. bukannya tanda mereka jahat. bukannya tanda hidup ni tak adil. cuma, mereka terpilih dan Allah tahu mereka mampu.

dan percayalah di sebalik kekuatan / kesakitan mereka tu. ada hikmah di sebalik kejadian. ada hikmah dalam hidup mereka. antara mereka lihat dengan mata kasar, atau mata hati.


sy diam. berfikir lagi. org kata, hidup ni ditakdirkan oleh tuhan.
tapi sy yakin dan percaya sgt, hidup ini ditulis oleh kita sendiri.
apa yg kita buat, fikir, dan pilih adalah jalan hidup kita skrng.
tp, bila berlaku bnda malang. kita tak habis - habis salahkan takdir kan?
tp, sy ada terdgr dlm sebuah english drama baru - baru ni.
"mistake u've done, is the best thing that u did by that time"
maksudnya. kesalahan yg kita pernah buat tu = mengajar kita skrng.

kesalahan kita tu, bukan satu kesilapan. bkn satu, bnda yg, terlarang.
tp kesalahan yg kita pernah buat tu, yg jadikan kita manusia, berguna.
manusia yg belajar ttg erti hidup. belajar utk jd, manusia yg berpk selalu.
bagi sy. antara kegagalan dgn kesalahan, nmpk sama tp tak serupa.
sy rasa kesalahan tu, lagi bnyk mengajar sy. kegagalan... mengajar jgk.
tp kdng2, sy ni lambat serik. tp,kesalahan? sering menghantui sy...



"bukan bidadari"



some ppl, who rarely knows me, might think...
sy ni budget baik, tp x baik. budget bagus, tp x bagus.
might think i'm totally naive. might think i'm a pretender.
and pendiam, alim, skema, sombong, and etc.
tapi kan... semua org ade rahsia hidup masing -masing kan?

org yg benar - benar kenal sy. sepupu sepapat. D12.
kwn2 kelas dulu. sekolah rendah n menengah, taw sy mcm mana.
i will be the craziest girl ever, the loudest girl, the most unpredictable too.
i can be the most-easily-excited, the funniest, and ....
u guys just dont-know-me-YET. try me =P



i'm that open minded girl. that, u can talk anything with. full of dream.
i can keep a secret, even when u didn't keep mine. i can keep on praying 4 u,
dreaming bout u, even when u begin to forget me. i can always be there.
the listener. the advicer. even when i'm not replying any of ur SMS or call.
i'm the one who thinks bout u, b4 i sleep and still, hoping that u're happy,
even when i'm not with u. but don't u ever 4get... don't u ever judge me.
cuz, remember, 1 thing for sure...



i'm only human. i made lottt of mistake. only god knows all the stupid things i've done.
i was full of sin. WAS and still AM. but, only me, myself, knows... how much.
i tried to be better, in every way of life. i'm trying, even when some time,
i'm truly madly deeply --> not in the mood / lazy. owhh yesss...



org kata
"benda yg negative ni, memang best. sbb tu org suka.
benda yg positive, memang susah. sbb tu org x suka."

tp.

org kata jgk
"benda yg positive tu, lama - lama, manis sangat.
sbb benda yg postive tu, manis dia kekal sampai bila - bila"



maka. mmg susah taw, nak buat benda baik ni. memang susah.
buat bnda jahat mmg best. contoh plg senang. kita mula dgn makanan.

makan maggie / fast food ;
sedap la weyhhh!!! tgkla kfc. mc d. ice cream. chocolates. cakes. whoaaaa.
tp. cuba pk jgk, kandungan die tuh, bnykkk sgt membunuh manusia.
bila manusia da over-addicted + tak seimbangkan pemakanan.
best, tp bahaya kan? sbb best die sementara.

makan sayur / buah ;
tak dinafikan, skrng mmg bnyk sayur + buah tu best. tp, kita bygkan...
yg pahit + susah nak ditelan tuh. contoh. buah peria. lala~
susahnya nak biasakan diri, dr lidah + mulut tp. khasiat die?
pahit, tp lama - lama best kan? best die kekal plak tu.



mcm tu juga perbuatan. buat bnda baik tu mmg susah kan?
buat bnda jahat tu mmg senang + best tayah ckp la an...
tp. bnda baik tu, bkn susah mane. and, tuhan tahu.
niat kita. hati kita. biarlah. apa org nak ckp. kan?
apa pun. ingt. hanya tuhan yg taw. =]


Oct 24, 2009

littlest things, are good enough.


it was 19th oct 2009, i arrived setiawngsa safely at almost 11pm from sarawak.
i took my bath, charged my hp(s), and watched TV.
and then suddenly, my hp rang, and PAP - black out.
ta daaa. kak sally + kema + ayie were singing 'happy birthday' and...
here's my 20th bday cake - mr cheeze choc. i love it bby!
awww. terharuuu. last dpt bday cake time f5, from my D12 =]


kma. 'dak tomey' tu awk la. bkn kte woo.



from mama - a set of white gold bracelet + necklace + ring

sampai2 je srwk, trus rush gi open day abah. and then...
blk mandi, solat, trus mama rushing ajak keluar.
rupanya mama belikan bday present trus. uhuuu~
mma pernah ckp nak belikan rantai, skali mama kasi bnyk kowt.
rase bersalah plak. hurmmm... tp skeee sgt mama. thanks.
aqilah appreciate teramat sgt. and ma, u shouldn't pay wish cash.
ape pun thanks maa. mmg aqilah pakai utk mama je =]



from abah - cream / gold '?' handbag. happy 'guess'ing =P

abah bought me this handbag the next day in srwk. it was on18th oct.
he was so sleepy by that time, that he slept in the car right after he gave this.
ahah... mama and i, were cont buying all the stuff at the mall. and. taw x?
1 fact - body shop dkt srwk / sabah is wayyyy cheaper than dkt semenanjung.
so. mmg borong jgklah ape yg perlu. uhuu~ abahhh. thanksss!!!
i just love it soooo much. ta raaa. sayang sampai x berani pakai '-__-



from teh - cik sotonggg comelll!!! XDD

sy ade bnykkk sgt teddy bear. bnyk sgt3. tp x dela sgt. dlm 25++ kot. x ingt.
then yg mmg sy nakkk sgt sbb x de lg - sotong + patrick + kura2 + ladybird.
then dpt sotong comel ni mcm, waaaaaa. sukeeeenye!!! hee. ni pon.
smbil type tgh peluk die. die pon tgh tgk gmbr die sdiri ade dlm blog ni. haha.
awww teh. thank u so muchhh. skeeee. kawaiii~



from mama ngah - '2 letters' purple handbag =P

gleee syg handbag ni n skee tataw nak ckp. haha. gi mane2 pon cam nak bwk je. wahaha.
tp, tkot kang slalu bwk putus ke ape koyak ke ssh jgk. adehhh. erm3...
mama ngah. skee la. mmg skee sgt. trimeee kasihhh. jgn kate aqilah.
kema. kak sally. teh. mama. semuaaa ske tgk handbag ni taw. t hee. thanksss!!!



bday cards - kma + kak sally + ayie + abah + mama.

left ; kma + kak sally + mama + ayie. ahah... thanks bbies.
middle ; from abah. comeelll gleee elephant tu abah! XD
right ; mama. u're always b the most precious person in the world =]

kad mama + abah tuh, siap ade lagu2 lg. haha.
btw. sy kan sentimental skittt. maka. mmg CARDS adalah bnda plg sy skeee
kalau dpt time bday. rase cam, idk. special + precious. thanksss again!



from - sofia + pooja + jesse

seriously cam x sangka korang kasi hadiah taw? waaaa. terharu amat sgt. so sweet.
hee. and thanks guys sbb masakkan bubur kacang hijau tu n ajak dinner.
i had a great time with u guys last thursday. bnyk gelak. lupa jap sume keletihan.
n thanks 4 all the cute lil stuff. owhh... trust me. that i'm so bz, that,
sy x sempat2 pon re-pack hadiah tuh lg. yer,still terbungkus camtu lg. uhuu~
thanks again sweetiesss. really3 appreciated ur kindness. =]



from adilah masham - stripey bag

it was 20th oct, and i've got a replacement class [directing] from 12pm - 6pm.
then i had meeting til 8pm. she gave it to me bout a few mins after i walked into the class.
and kebetulan je baju hari tu cam matching je dgn handbag tuh. t hee.
purple + white + blue + green. i like. thanks masham!!!



from - die x kasi bgtaw die sape. wahaha.

isi dalam die sgtlaaaa best. best best best.
ske ske ske. exclusive. impressive. and, 1 in a million. haha.
btw. million thank uuu. u know i love it so much =]







TU JE hadiah. hee. tamat kesah hadiah.
nak cite ttg semalam. yer. semalam.
jumaat malam sabtu!






since i was really, really, really exhausted with all the class, assignment, meeting, final project and so on, i've been waiting for the whole week utk... utk weekend ini! uhuu. sbb nak berehat sgt3, kalau blh xnak kuar rumah langsung. yer larh, mane taknye, hari2 duduk dkt kolej dr pagi sampai mlm. aiyooo... serious ckp bnyk leteyh ok. tp. mmg x dpt jgkla nak rehat sepenunya since sdare mara dtg, mestilah spend time masa dgn die org jgk kan. hee... but, last night, habis meeting and sampai rumah dlm almost 8pm. balik je, terusss mandi. and, taraaa.


MASA UTK SEGARKANNN DIRI


watson's body scrub + st.ives apricot scrub + lifebuoy shower gel + bodyshop seaweed deep cleansing facial wash + elken elysyle shampoo & conditioner [iqah pnye product!!! XD]

tp utk semalam! yess! sy mulakan dgn...
scrub badan sepenuh hati. haha... sental3. pastuh, tambah shampoo.
bilas scrub, then baru bilas shampoo. then conditioner... pastuh. scrub muka!
sambil tu bilas plak conditoner... gosok gigi! pastu baru bilas scrub muka.
lalalala. dah segar dahhh ble kuar dr toilet.



johnson's baby lotion + johnson's baby powder + bodyshop seaweed clarifying toner + bodyshop seaweed night moist + bodyshop seaweed ionic clay mask + nivea deodorant double effect

pastuuu. sy pakaii yg 1st skali deodarant dlu. then lotion from neck to toe, bedak dkt tmpt2 yg cepat dpt ruam ble peluh cam leher, then sental muka pakai mask dluuu... jd cam 'the mask' dah. hahahah. dah lepas 15-20 min pakai mask, bilas and pakai toner + nighr moist. haaa...
da rase bertambah3 segar. whuuuuuuuuuu~



biore pore pack + Lila Vital Cosway eye mask

utk menghilangkannn blackhead + eyebag, makanya merajinkan diri memakai dua bnda nih. 1 dkt hidung, 1 bawah mata. dgn harapan magic akan terjd. tp... kalau jarang2 rajin camni x de guna jgk woo. huuu... best pakai eye mask tuh. sejukkk je. pore pack tuh, sakit woo ble nak tarik. wahahah. seksa jiwa raga. tp syokkk ble tgk blackhead yg berjaya dikeluarkan. *wink wink*


maka...
berjayalah sy MEMUASKAN diri sendiri!
dgn MEMANJAKAN diri sendiri! ahah...


ptg td pon baru tman kema gi saloon. die nak buat rambut die fashion ape tah.
skrng die tgh gi ade party majalah EH! - 10th anniversary.
maka. td. sy pun, cuci la rambut je sbb last week baru treatment.




whoaaa. cuz i worth it ;P




those who STILL care




i've been missing my-freeeeee-time so much. awwww. tiring life~
things i missed the most - bloggie, lappy, lola, mr sony cybershot. yesss.
i just don't have any time to cry 4 all the broken hearted thingy...
u might b seeing me cry because of tonnes of assignment + meeting + final project.
a few drops of tears, of course but, it's not a waterfall full of tears bby =P
and yet, it's not because of love, friends, or fmly. i dont have time 2 think bout that.
i mean, obviously i've no time to think bout all the saddest thing on earth ...

ok. it was my 20th birthday on 2oth oct 2009. and, i was about to write
"those who STILL remember" but then i changed it to STILL care.
cuz i know, there's some of them, who didn't even remember it. it just.
they saw it on my fb. and that's it... i've got a lotttt of bday wishes. =]



comment @ FB
sarah zaihan . pdo . lemi . kak sufi . cera . zairis . eeda . effa . nora . hawa . emma . acap . suha . zikri . shasha . anna . adzimah . zul . sofia . hafish . nabil . shafinaz . arinie . mardhiah . faris . akid . iqah . fuad . shera . aus . haikal . maria . mizan . leon . syeeda . farouq . yanie . atika . salmiza .
kak jannah . arashi . kak ngah . izzah . sid . adam . fatin aqilah . nabilah . yana . sarah salehah . azira . khairy . emmy . syue . jal . fazrina . ili nadiah . adrina . fatyn . kurt . aziemah . dayaa . wan tomot . asnyra . afix . meyraa . rizal . syed shazrin . annuar . eyqa . shakirah . amier . bee . nadiah .

tag / msg @ FB
babe . aus . kak hana . keyna . eypa

ym
the one & only - shahli aiman

SMS @ maxis
b4 12am - shaufi . ayie . mak sue la
12am onwards - anna . waed . afiq . sherry . syahmi . anis . salghee . akid . ainaa amira . atin . ainaa K . afeeqa . aishah . kambink . adilah . abah . zaid + kakak ipar [wanie] . kak lyne . miraghee . nabil . nasz . mizan . leon . ayong . kak aizam . ilyana . bha . pooja

SMS @ old maxis / celcom
enuni . naiya . hilmi . hadi

received call
nora . ainaa . babe . sherry . afiq . teh . abah . naiya .

chatbox @ bloggie
keyna + teha

special blog post 4 my birthday
babe . nora . athirah . teha .

in person - dearie collegemate . cousins . mama .



whoaaaa. ramaiii jgk kan. t hee. alhamdulilah.
doa, wish(s) + harapan?
jd manusia berguna dunia akhirat.
berjaya + bahagia dunia + akhirat. amin.



THANKS for ALL the wishes...



Oct 17, 2009

17th oct 09 - day 4 - heart.


17th oct 09. day 4 of the, changing-my-life-phase. 2nd day of, erm, u know~
rase cam da lame plak. rase mcm. lame sgt. urmm~ well hey. gerak blk kuching!
yeay yeay. jap je lg. bagusss nye awk aqilahhh x gi class 2 hari dah. x larat.
badan x larat. nnt kang pengsan ssh. hati larat. tkot bdan yg x blh trime.
owhhh... mulalah nnt habit ske termenung dlm plane. aiyooo. packing x start lg.
ala 3 hari je. baju tdow x yah bwk, bju duk umah tayah. bju jln je. erm.
ade yg x bwk luggage besar kang. bwk hand luggage je. blh? taleh. brg mesti bnyk jgk nnt.

sampai2 kuching nnt dlm 3pm. mama + abah x dpt ambik di airport. syahdu plak rase~
cett. bkn ape pun. nnt driver ambil dkt airport, pastuuu terus gerak g office abah.
ade open... open office? ke. ahah. ade jamuan rayeee. mama + abah mesti kene ade sane.
tuan rumah. so dr airport gerak trus gi sane. mesti muka sememeh je kan tgh leteyh.
x pela. mkn best3. uncle2 anak buah abah mesti simpankan mknan pnye. ta daaa~
mule2 pk jamuan raye kan, pakai bju kurung ke? tp x kan nak naik plane bju kurung.
wahaha. tammo2. budget esok pakai sneakers je. [abah pantang sy naik plane dgn flip flop]
bju kurung choc + crocs pink. blh? hahahahahaha XD ngok ngek~

ermmm... btw. heart. this is for u.

Heart, I know I’ve been hard on you
I’m sorry for the things I’ve put you through
Before you start to break on me or ask for sympathy
I need to make you see

Oh, heart, I’m not sure it’s been long enough
To say that what I feel is really love
There’s just one way to learn, sometimes we’ll get hurt
And right now it’s our turn

Give it time, help me through
Heart, we can do this together
You’re my strength, you’re my soul
I need you now more than ever

Heart, all the hurt will soon be gone
If you’ll, if you’ll just keep on being strong
You will always be my friend, so keep on hangin' in
And we’ll find love again

Heart, I know I’ve been hard on you
I’m sorry for the things I put you through
Please don’t you break on me, I need to make you see
It wasn’t meant to be

‘Cause you will always be my friend, so keep on hangin' in
And we’ll find love again