Jun 22, 2009

di sebalik aqilah yg sekarang...



close friends, plz bace sampai abis. i really mean close friends yg sudi bace blog nih.
sejak berkurun lame esp those yg bace time sy private dlu~ ilysm~!
ok. post kali ni... panjang sgt3. tp tlg sgt3 bace sampai abis.. huuu. ade sbbnye.
banyak sgt rahsia hidup sy akan didedahkan~ hee. and owh...
korang akan taw. sape sy yg sebenar~~~ =]


22 june 2009, monday - pakcik mat meninggal pagi td... ={
arwah adelah datuk saudara sy belah mama. di terengganu~ da ajal.
x de sakit ape2. arwah isteri die baru je meninggal last year... hurm.
dulu arwah ske kaco sy nak kawinkan dgn cucu pilihan die. grrr~
sy x ske even die ckp, kalo kawin dpt kereta merc sport. and he means it.
tp nasib baik cucu kesygan die tu dah kawin baru2 nih~! haha.
erm,ok...sdeyh actually sbb x dpt blk tganu. anyway,al fatihah~


ok. most of u guys yg bace blog ni, mmg da rapat kan3? haha. [perasan...]
well. this blog just like a diary of mine. that's my own point of writing blog.
kalau yg da lame bace blog sy... 4 sure cam da kenal sy kan? even x pernah jmpe etc.
no worries! u will! of course korang sume akan dijemput ke majlis perkahwinan sy.
ermm... dlm 6-8 tahun lg, kot? insya allah. haha. err. sy x mksdkan anonymous.
i mean, korang2 yg wkt sy private pon bace. hee. anyway, thanks. 4 reading.
ok. da lari gile dr topik. actually. sy perlukan pendapat. yes.




hurm. sy selalu sgt3 terpk. ape kelebihan sy? ape bakat sy? ape kemampuan sy?
it's not la i'm overthink bout it. but 4 me, semua org perlu tahu. cungkil.
ape yg ade dgn diri sendiri. it's 4 the future and what would we be 4 the next 20 years.
and honestly speaking... sy mmg tak pernah nmpk, tataw nak nmpk kelebihan sy.
bknlah sy x bersyukur, just sy mmg x nmpk. sy x dpt kenal pasti. sy rasa.
mmg diri ni sgt kekurangan. ataw mungkin...owh lupe. mungkin ade yg tataw.
sy nih mmg jenis rendah diri amat, low self confident, etc. yup, that's me.

there's a time. sy mmg NAMPAK [nampak je...] mcm pro sgt. mcm confident sgt.
tp percayelah. itu amat sgt jarang berlaku. kalau jd pon, itu adalah amat spontan.
cam tibe2 ade kilat menyambar urat & jdlah berjln dgn yakin, dan semua yg best2,
positive pon jd. huuu... kan best kalo sy camtuh sepnjng mase? haih~ sebenarnye tak!
dr dulu...sampai skrng. sy pk, semua ni. kelebihan, bakat, kemampuan. sy x nmpk.
mama ckp, sbb sifat pemalu n rendah diri sy ni jgk... sy selalu jln bongkok. yup.
bkn bongkok gle2, just a lil bit. kalo org yg rapat, maybe perasan kot?

kenape sy jd rendah diri n pemalu x bertmpt selalunye? sy pun tataw.
tp ape yg blh sy katekan. dgn jujur la sy ckp. yg kdg2 dgn kawan2 rapat pon.
sy tataw nak ckp camne... ok. jujur sy ckp d sini, dr segi fizikal pon sy kurang.
i mean. kalau dr segi fizikal, apa yg sy nmpk dan pk, adelah sy gemuk.
hey hey~! sy bkn cam pompuan lain yg PERASAN gemuk sbb takut gemuk.
cuma. mmg kenyataan sy gemuk. then sy tgk lg... kulit muka sy bermasalah.
jerawat, blackhead, berminyak, etc. then erm, semua x cantik la. leh ckp camtu.
tp sy bersyukur, sbb sy lengkap anggota badan dan ok semuanya.

jgn salahkan sy sbb bersifat mcm ni. tp...sebenarnye. mungkin persekitaran jgk kot?
taw x... ape gelaran sy x pernah dpt? gemuk. gajah. buntal. badak. and ape tah lg.
owh, sy taw bezakan yg main2 & yg btol2. huu. yg main2 sy x kesah... sy fhm.
tp ade masenye ble main2 itu berlebih2, anytime sy blh jd moody dan nangis.
ttg ni, sy mmg extra sensitive. tlgla fhm... mmg mcm tuh. jd. sy fhm sgt perasaan.
mereka yg gemuk, tak cantik dll. jgn ingt sy x fhm. sbb sy btol2 fhm. sy x kesah sume tuh.
sbb tu sy x pernah nak pilih kwn... mahupun lebeyh dr kwn melalui fizikal~

sy tak lupe... time gigi sy tak tersusun dan bertaring, kwn ckp gigi sy buruk.
sy tak lupe... ade kwn x suke sy semate - mate ckp bibir sy tebal. ya allah?
tak lupe jgk... ade org ckp mate sy bulat sgt sampai nak tersembur~
tak pernah lupe pon... ade org ckp sy gemuk cam babi.
eheh... it's ok. da lepas~

bile sy pakai braces... mcm biase, makin ramai org ckp hodoh, gigi besi, etc.
bile sy pernah kurus, turun dlm 7-8 kg, pun org ckp lg...
"nape kurus sgt sampai keping sgt? x cantik lah." hurm... semua tak kena kan?
sy taw mulut org x bleh tutup, tp ni salah satu faktor sy jd mcm nih.


sbb tuh kot. bile org ckp or puji, MAYBE dgn ikhlas pon, sy rase cam.. err~
tipuuuuuuu!!! most of the time sy akan ckp "huu? mane ade. tpu je~!"
sbb sy rase mmg cam nothing special. sbb tu jgk sy selalu ckp...
i'm nowhere near perfect. skit pon x hampir. cuz sy x de pape. eheh.
sbb tuh bile ade org ckp sy nih best, dr segi life or appearance. sy cam.
tersenyum je skrng. sbb mereka tataw d sebalik itu. sy kosong.
enggak punyai ape2. eheh. its ok. sy menulis nih... dgn emosi yg rasional. =]

ke2, kelebihan dan bakat... yer. sy btol2 xnmpk. kdg2, jujur sy ckp.
sy takot ape yg sy pilih skrng, bukan diri sy yg sebenar. mksd sy, pelajaran.
sy taw ni sy minat. yer, sy x ske kerja yg hanya terperuk di dlm office.
mahupun cuma bereksperimen di makmal. sy tak minat. sy ske kerja yg bnyk bergerak.
merantau negara org, dan cuba sesuatu yg baru dan berlainan dlm hidup sy.
dulu... sy minat sgt forensik. ya allah, minat sesgt. same cam sy minat law...
tp time SPM, sy mmg xleh gi dgn bio. malah, sy x minat bio. pelik tak?
sbb slalunye pompuan ske bio~! and. camne minat forensik tp xminat bio? LOL.
law. sy minat sbb berdebat. yes i like. tp. tah. bile pk blk. sy x suke menghafal.
jd. sy lepaskan 2 nih sbb sy seda, ape yg kte cinta x semestinya milik kte~

then. sy mmg amat sgt super duper minat math~! maybe sbb mama ckgu math jgk?
tataw3. tp...ape sy blh kate, bile sy masok MRSM, study sy makin turun.
maybe sbb sy xley catch up kot? eheh. kwn2 se-mrsm lebeyh taw. kan3? =]
ok. pengakuan berani mati. time di mrsm, sy x pernah sekali pon dpt A utk math.
sedangkan time drjh 1 - form 4 b4 masok asrama, sy x pernah miss A. huuu~
kwn2 sekelas sy d mrsm time tuh, semua dpt A kecuali sy. yer~! sy sorang.
fhm x mcm mane rase rendah diri tuh membuak2 ble tibe2 jd tercorot? wuuu~
sy slalu dpt best student utk maths. owh indahnye time tuh... bile malas sgt.
nak buat hmwrk lain, sy buat maths. asyik3 maths. tp tuh, sebelum msk mrsm.
tp alhamdulilah...akhirnye sy dpt jgk A1 utk SPM maths. thanks ckgu syafura~!!!

ape motif sy ckp ttg subject2 plak? sbb sy pelik...ape yg jd. time SPM,
ape yg sy minat sgt3, result dpt biase je. yg sy x bape minat, semua A.
most of the subj yg sy x minat tuh subj2 membace, dan menghafal. huu~
i love numbers~! physics, maths, add math etc. tp...tuh plak biase2 je.
owh yer, subj plg sy lemah time SPM = chemistry / kimia. huhu. dunno y.
mmg xley g langsung2. tp cikgu azmi, cikgu kimia sy sgt baik + kelakar.
cikgu...thanks utk semua ilmu ckgu. huu~~~ ckgu ni sgt bersabar dgn kelemahan sy.
ok. dr keputusan SPM sy...mama ckp. sy otak sastera & minat sastera.
tp hakikatnye sy rase. maybe otak sy sastera, tp sy minat sains yg melibatkan nombor. =[

owh, keputusan SPM sy tak gempak mcm bebdk mrsm lain. sy biase2 je.
tgh2. x de failed semestinya. kalo ade failed, maw sy pelajar SPM 2006 yg mati bunuh diri =P
sebenarnye... SPM adelah wkt yg sy dah usaha utk belajar plg kuat sepnjng hidup sy.
tp. keputusannye sebaliknya. tp mmg ade peningkatan. sbb x sangka jgk.
ramai lg kwn2 mrsm yg lain berada d bwhh sy. sbb sy terpk, sy mesti tercorot dlm SPM.
rezeki masing2 kan? eheh. and kalau nak taw... sy mmg extra sensitive dgn SPM.
i mean, result SPM. hurm. sbb i'm hoping 4 more. i desire more than what i got.
setiap tahun, selepas 2006, sy akan nangis x ingt dunia time result SPM diumumkan.
yup, sy x blh tgk surat khabar, TV, radio or ape je. sy akan nangis gile3.
tak kisah cerita ttg kejayaan dlm SPM ataw ape saje berkaitan SPM.
sbb ya, sy mmg hingga saat ni, masih terkilan dgn ape yg sy dpt utk SPM.
tp...sy percaya, setiap kejadian ada hikmahnya. jd, sy reda.

ok. sy pernah rasa menjadi pelajar yg paling cemerlang, dan juga paling corot.
jd sy dpt rase mcm mana bile berade d atas dan d bwh. alhamdulilah~
bkn semua dpt rase cam sy kan? eheh... skrng. baru sy taw. kenape.
sy tgk kwn2 sy yg kurang pandai dlu, asyik diam & takot2. sy fhm...
bertapa mereka merasa rendah diri setelah semua usaha x berhasil.
yg mmg pemalas tuh~ lantak die org la. mmg x kejar kejayaan. huu...
dan ye, mungkin jgk sy terlalu lama berada d atas, Allah biarkan sy rasa plak.
mcm mane berada d bwh... ya, berada d atas itu indah. semua best.
kita dihormati, apa2 org cari kita, semua org kenal, dan blh kate complete.
tp... jgn la sampai kte lupe diri sbb semua tu kan, sementare je. kan? hurm...

aiyooo. x sngka pnjng plak ttg pelajaran. ttg kelebihan n bakat.
owh sy mmg tataw. tataw3!!! x nmpk dan masih mencari. sbb tuh. sy ske buat kuiz.
kuiz personaliti dan lain2, sbb sy masih mencari diri sendiri. sbb tuh skrng...
sy mmg setuju. lelaki dan perempuan itu sama2 sukar difahami. sbb itu manusia.
manusia adalah makhluk paling complex yg sukar difahami. tak akan mungkin?
ok. contoh sy disini, mcm ade org ade kelebihan die, mungkin pandai menyanyi?
berckp dpn org ramai, dan berpesonaliti menarik. pandai menulis dan beri pendapat yg bagus.
tp sy? entah. btol sy tataw n x nmpk. wawawawa~~~ tp sy perlu taw.
utk mase dpn sy dan jgk, utk diri sy sendiri. yes, kdg2 sy penatlah org ambil kesempatan.

mama ckp... sy pandai menulis. tp sy rase bhsa sy, BM mahupun BI adalah lintang pukang.
mama ckp lg... lupa ke sy dulu menang peraduan bercerita? lupa ke sy pandai melukis?
hukk. melukis? da lame sy tinggalkan... sbb sy tgk buruk je. huhu. tp mama framekan.
lukisan2 sy wkt kecik. eheh. thanks mama... mama ckp. drpd menulis dkt blog ni free2.
lebeyh baik sy buat cerpen atau novel. dpt extra income. ahakz~ mama ckp lg...
lupe ke qila pernah buat iklan di radio & calendar? lupe ke pernah buat fashion show? huu.
time tuh lain la mama. hurm. skrng makin x cantik + gemuk. suara pun x best da.
ada kwn ckp... sy seswai jd kaunselor. sbb sy pandai kasi pendapat, & selesaikan masalah.
tp sy terpk? masalah org sy selesaikan. tp masalah sy sdiri kdg2 penink2 lg. LOL.
ade org ckp sy good listener, blh dipercayai & kdg2 sebenarnye berani. entah?

hurmm... ade lg kwn ckp, sy bnyk kelebihan. tp sy x nmpk2. dan die pon xnak btaw.
die ckp biar sy jumpe n seda sendiri nnt. hukkk? entah3!!! tataw3!!!
ade kwn lain ckp, sy pandai ambik gmbr. aiyooo. mungkin die org x jmpe kwn2 lain lg?
ade yg ckp... sy untung sbb sy pandai berkwn & ramai kwn. ishh3...itu cuma jd.
ble sy tibe2 rasuk d suntik dgn keyakinan secara tibe2. sgt jrng~! ehehe.
ape lg ek? entah. owh...abah pernah suruh sy tulis lirik lagu. gile. x reti kot?
ade yg suruh sy ambik TESL dlu. tp mereka blum tgk lg BI hawa & momoyo & nini~!
huhu... lg hebat. haih~ itulah... sampai skrng sy tataw. ape kelebihan sy. tlg?
last. ade org ckp... kelebihan sy terletak d hati sy... mungkin tu je yg sy ade.
utk menutup semua kekurangan fizikal dan mental sy. eheh


org mungkin kenal sy dgn 2 personaliti. tgk pada d mana mereka kenal sy.
dan sejauh mana mereka kenal sy. d skolah rendah? sy friendly + faymes. [cett...]
sekolah rendah mmg perfect la hidup sy. eheh. indahnye~ ok. skola men?
depends skola mane. owh yer... lupe lg. ade org ckp. ramai ckp. sy slalu senyum.
sy rase. cam sy nih garang je?wahahah. dunno3!!! ok. 2 kategori je org mungkin kenal.
1- yg peramah, friendly, nakal, pandai, kuat gelak,
lawak and gile. ckp sampai x de noktah.

2- yg malu. diam. pandai / kurang pandai.
buat hal sdiri. sombong. ckp bile perlu.

d kolej skrng? ahah. ramai org ingt sy yg no2~ yg rapat je taw sy no1~ hee.
n mmg. sebenarnye ramai je ckp sy ni gile. haha. owh. org yg da benar2 kenal sy.
akan ckp sy no 1. yer. die org majoritinye ckp... mereka ingt sy nih yg no2. =P


baiklah~! sy berhenti bercerita dlu buat mase nih, nnt lg pnjng. grrr~
ok. sy amat benar menghargai segalaaaa pendapat dan comment kalian.
huuu. cam desperate je mintak org comment. tp. yup, diperlukan. eheh.
oklah... bnykkan rahsia terbongkar? hee. ni semua rahsia n bnde yg jd...
di sebalik aqilah yg skrng... =]

thanks ya 4 reading this...LONG tragic history & opinion. haha.



33 comments:

-azwanbakhtiar- said...

lol. 6 tahun lagi nak kawin? lambat gila. haha.

semua orang ada kelebihan masing-masing. sama ada hg tak tau atau hg saja xmau tau. haha.

I am ELLY~ said...

1-isu gemuk.. ahah~ stop thinking about it.. tak bermakna, kalaw gemuk, diri itu tidak da yang maw dimiliki~ [trust me, i totally understand.. i was a VERY fat girl]

2- SPM??? ahahah~ funny though.. u really shud get over it. my SPM was like hell.. 2as and the rest memang bakul. But look wer am i standing now?? better than those straight As students.. Dr org duk gelar slow zaman skolah, now i am carrying titles that most people want~ Shud treat the past as a lesson. Prove urself better than EVERYONE else~

3- a wise man told me once.. Everyperson has a hidden talent and no one would able to see that by urself. U have to search for it by urself. tipu lah kalaw ada org yang leh ckp whats ur talent.. Kelebihan,.. MAYBE.. Like kuat sabar, creative and so on.. But the talent, its something that only u would know.

4- character senyap dpn org, but gile2 dpn close frens.. i prefer that kind of character.. i live my life that way.. not all people know my true color and i seriously prefer that way. dont show ur real atts to everyone because people might *take advantage* of u.

5- Takziah.. and al-fatihah~

ayong said...

syg, i tak reti nk explain pnjjg2, i tak reti nk tulis byk2.tp if ckp in privately, i think i know who u are, and i penah rasa few yg u rasa.

and i ase u no 1, nnt qila, de masa i tulis onjg2 ok! byk sbnrnye kelebihan u taw!

nnt i privately ngn u.

i tak pndai trg2 neh~

hehe~

n before that, takziah ea

.Nora Kacak. said...

**hurmm... ade lg kwn ckp, sy bnyk kelebihan. tp sy x nmpk2. dan die pon xnak btaw. die ckp biar sy jumpe n seda sendiri nnt**



wahahahah, nk cakap macamtu lagi bole tak? weee awk tgu cuti sem, sy jawab semo. bg essay teros. xpa2. 7w. sempat la. satu perenggan 1w. 7 perenggan = 7w. huiihhh byk3. sabaq no. hahaha. =]

ruzannashazni said...

qila! i pun xnampak ape kelebihan i eh?
tp tu kut i punya kelebihan. xnampak kelebihan diri sendiri eh? okayyyy. i tahu i merepek.


p/s: pernah wakil daerah pertandingan bercerita juga! :):)

ra|nbOw said...

azwan. 6 tahun tuh standard la~! haha. XD owhhh. aku sudah taw perkare tuh. sbb tuh aku tekankan jgk aku bersyukur dgn ape yg ade. just aku perlu berubah jgk.

owh kak lyne. thanks a lot 4 the long comment. ermmm. VERY fat? but i dont think as fat as i'm. anyway. itulah. sgt proud of u with ur academic rite now. =] talent? idk. someday kot. hurmmm. itulah. tp ble jd no 2 pon kdg2 lg org pijak kepale~ thanks.

ayong. haha. insya allah nnt ble da abis final project per sume... erk. time tuh u pon bz nak new sem da. wahaha. later insya allah. thanks =]

nora. pape je yg puaskan ati awk k? kalo sy tnye lg nnt awk marah plak. sy fhm keadaan awk skrng. no worries. take care =]

ruzanna. haha. kelebihannye kamu sgt comel dr segi fizikal dan juga peribadi. and, merendah diri je orgnye. bnyk lg. u'll revealed soon. eheh. =]

Rizal Yusof [© REJECTshot 2009] said...

HuHuhuhuh, sesungguh nya
aku pn gila ngan nombor
& xska ngan subjek2 yg
kna bnyk membaca xcept
mmg benda yg aku ska...=p

Biar rendah diri Qillah,
baru x ramai musuh n orang
x benci... At least kita sedar diri..=p

Org yg bangga diri ni yang
slalu bermasalah... Slalu ingat
diri bagus/perfect siap puji
diri sendiri...
Tanpa disedari beliau akan
dibenci dan dicaci... Chewah....
Huhuhuh....

Btw aper kawen lmbt sgt???
Jgn umur dh 40-an anak
baru masuk tadika!!!
Hohohoh... =D

ra|nbOw said...

wakakaka. thanks ryzal~! eheh.
weyyhhh. lmbt ke kalo 26-28 tuh? huu. ok la tuh. kawin awal2 x de duit lg nih~! masak pon x terror lg~! haha XD

hawanasir said...

qilah;
first of all, high 5! 4-5 taun! tp i think ur going to settle down earlier than me ;)

well, sebenarnya kita sama. tatao talent/kelebihan masing2. hey i look worse than u. hahaha. da la boyish, rupa pon tadew -,- *ohh, utk reference pasal boyish tu, sila rujuk kepada ayong dan naim and probably fitri ariff sebab damn masa skola renda mmg nakal HAHAHA*

tp i didn't go to pertandingan bercerita, i suck at drawing *come on colouring pon tak lepas SAMPAI sekarang HAHAHA*, even nak potong straight lines pon kantoi. Hahaha. And I never do any ads ;)

I was never the top student. People might look at me as "the girl who can talk" and "looks confident/intelligent" but seriously, on paper I was average. The fact is I was never a genius. But I love maths!

People say I write well, well there's a whole bunch of people out there who write better than I do (and sayang, I'm not that good in English TRUST me HAHAHA coz since people judge "intelligence" ON PAPER, so yeah I suck ;))

And my mates used to tell me to take up counseling because I like listening to others *but it's not my cup of tea*. HAHAHA. Cant believe we have so much in common!

Nak taw tak apa kelebihan qila? KUAT. Qilah boleh berpegang teguh kepada diri sendiri despite what people say and do to you. And trust me, bukan semua orang boleh buat macam tu. :)

p.s: I WAS fat, remember? Haha. And kite pon banyak jerawat ngehh blackhead jangan kira. AND something I wouldn't tell everyone is I have sinusitis too. Anddddd I'm even worse than you, I am not fair and my teeth are bleahhhh. But hell we're strong girls kan. HAHAHA. Biaq pi orang nak cakap apa :D

p.p.s: And lagi satu kelebihan qilah, you have friends who love you *points to self hehehe* and diorang sentiasa support qilah. Trust me, that's a HUGE advantage, sebab tak semua org dapat kawan camtu. I thought I had those kinds of friends in my life but rupa2nya they were all fake *tears* BUT NOW I HAVE THE BEST PEOPLE ON THE WORLD IN MY LIFE!! :DD

p.p.p.s: Dah macam satu entry plak -.-'

her said...

salam..

bg aiman..

kelebihan qilah adelah jujur..

qilah iklas dlm berkwn..

em..

dr entry qilah kn..

betolla ape qilah ckp dulu..

bnyak bnda kite same..

momo+nini said...

salam

buat aqilah yang dirindui...

hehe..aqilah..objection

mai ase aqilah seorang yang sangat comel dan mai selalu nak jadi cam qila

the way u smile make me feel happy beinng around you...

and indeed u'r smile is so sweet..

i never think of u as someone fat..
u'r just cute the way u r... means u don't have to lose any weight, but just keep fit and eat moderately..
hey,petite is cute. skinny will not mean beauty, aite!!!

i am not by any way a very confident person either. it is comforting to know that there is someone like aqilah, who despite thinking that she has all the insecurities still trying to do her best in life and proving to the world what she is capable of achieving..but aqilah, think that u r better, think that u have all the qualities to succeed in ur life. we all have our series of success and failures in life. and this make up the history of our life. but when u had done ur best, it wouldn't matter anymore, because the effort counts, not the result( but somehow yes, when the education system in our country wants students with good result to determine their places) however, u still is a good student and i think u suceed in making the knowledge yours, not only studying for the sake of passing exam but u enjoy it. and when u got many A's in subjects u do not really like, that means u r talented.

i believe that aqilah is an outgoing person, a fun to be with, a good listener, caring, open-minded, cheerful and independent.and i am blessed to hv someone like u as best friend of mine.

aqilah, based on tarikh lahir kan ikut kajian dr.fadzilah kamsah..ni versi detail

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Suka sembang, suka org yg sayang padanya, suka ambil jln tengah, sangat menawan & sopan santun, kecantikan luar & dalam, tidak pandai berbohong & berpura-pura, mudah rasa simpati,baik pentingkan kawan, sentiasa berkawan, hatinya mudah terusik tetapi merajuknya tak lama, cepat marah, macam pentingkan diri sendiri, tidak menolong org kecuali diminta, suka melihat dari perspektifnya sendiri, tidak suka terima pandangan org lain, emosi yg mudah terusik, suka berangan & pandai bercakap, emosi yg kelam kabut, daya firasat yg sangat kuat (terutamanya perempuan), suka melancong,bidang sastera & seni, pengasih ,penyayang & lemah lembut, romantik dlm percintaan, mudah terusik hati & cemburu, ambil berat tentang org lain, suka kegiatan luar, org yg adil, boros & mudah dipengaruhi persekitaran, mudah patah semangat,


n aqilah, sometimes the childhood memories yang keep us strong... for me, since kindergarten i like to conteng-conteng and i still do it now... because i think sometimes the past is a good reminder that we can do it! that we are once the high -achiever. we had shone. that we are talented. insyaAllah.

aqilah, i believe in u and i always do. i pray for the best in ur life.

love,
mai

eyann said...

woops! maw bg komen jugak.
ahah.

like wut i said, sy cepat adore dgn org lain.
but i wonder there's anyone adore wif me too?
sebabnye..
sy cepat nmpk kelebihan org.
but for myself, i never know what is my strength or even specialty.
ye3. sy juga sorg yg low self esteem.
based on my appearance n academic.
hm.. sy x cantik. n sy jugak x pandai.
thats what i figured out bout myself.
kwn? i have some friends. yeap, just some of them i can call as FRIENDS.
nak ckp depan or ramai?
wuu~ ketaq lutut agaknye.
n yeap, being a leader?
juge sy x reti.
but i know, perempuan bleyh jd a really good leader kn?
kaunselor? uh.. agaknya masalah org bleh jd tambah bila dgr nasihat sy. hikk.
n.. even blogging!!
i still dont have confident to blog
bout my daily life.
even its the main purpose why i'm having a 'blog'.
kdg2 da taip pjg2, rase nyesal lak sbb publish.
takot org pk yg bukan2.
n kate sy menunjuk atau nk bangga diri. huu~


but for u,
i can see there's lots of 'keistimewaan' yg tadew ngan org lain.
yeap, thats what i can say.
sebab.. sy pn x penah jumpe qila.
just follow up crite from ur blog.
nak nilai qila, jauh sekali.
but i know, u're such a strong girl.
n please 1 thing u shud know,
dont u ever deny wut ppl had said to u.
ape yg dorg kate semuanya betul.
n i totally agreed!

1. i love ur smile. nmpk happy all the time. but i know, deep inside u're suffering for something.
2. i love ur writing.that's the one that i keep saying to u dr dlu kn? n yes,i mean it.
3. u're such a friendly girl. ingat x msa kita mula2 kenal. wuu.. sy bg komen dkt post qila wif TTM. then, till now we remain as blogger friend :)
4. anda seorg yg caring!. ye3, thats what i need from a friend.
5. u come wif a simple life but a great family.u shud proud for having a good mum n dad. who owez understand u in any circumstance. ta sume org mcm tu taw.

so, cume itu saje lah komen sy utk kali ni.
(w/pun sbnrnya ade lg..)
maaflah buat komen panjang2 ye.
tp hati terpanggil utk buat pengakuan.
ahah. pengakuan ttg 'siapa qila d mata sy'. winkkk~

sekian. time kasih.
:P

| AiNaa K | said...

kelebihan :

ainaa rase semua org ade kelebihan and kelemahan..maybe sis dah tau kelemahan sis but kelebihan x nmpk lg..sure ade benda yg sis bleh buat lebih baik drpd org lain..n maybe,kwn sis ckp btul..sis ramai kwn..x semua org ade ramai kwn sbb x semua org nak kwn dgn die..but sis,ade ramai kwn..i might be wrong sbb kte berknln through alam cyber ni kan but i can tell that you're a very likeable person..even through cyber space,sis dah buat ramai kwn..ainaa rase ni slh satu kelebihan sis jugak..n yg lain,mcm others ckp,sis akan discover sendiri..n maybe sis akan dpt tau time sis mmg perlukan kelebihan tu..who knows kan? :)

rendah diri :

sis byk rase rendah diri sbb fizikal eh?ni ainaa fhm..sbb dari kecik pernah kena..dulu ainaa mcm terpk gak asl tuhan x bg ainaa mcm cantik sket..haha..tp bila ingat balik,fizikal ni x tahan lama..ade org fizikal cantik,tp internal x cantik..ade org fizikal x cantik,internal cantik..n utk ainaa,ainaa rase sis x de la x cantik..seriously,sis ni sweet looking..xkan org yg ejek2 sis tu hrp semua org muka mcm supermodel kot?lgpun kan,ainaa rase lg cantik ppuan ni,lg byk dugaan..sbb kte x tau kenapa org nak kwn dgn kte,kenapa lelaki suka kat kte,kenapa org nak rapat dgn kte..sbb luaran semata-mata ke?kira if satu hari nnt tuhan nak calarkan sket,semua org nak lari la,mcm tu?part rendah diri,fizikal ainaa mmg fhm..org yg btul2 sygkan sis akan nmpk yg sis ni cantik..okay? =)

studies :

bab studies ni mmg subjektif..susah kte nak tau kte ambik keputusan yg tepat ke x..in the future baru kte bleh nmpk..tp utk ainaa,if mmg rezeki kte,xkan lari jugak..rezeki akan smpai..aslkan kte berusaha dlm ape yg kte buat n x take things for granted,kte sure ade peluang nak excel dlm ape yg kte buat..mungkin ape yg sis buat skrg merupakan yg terbaik buat sis..

manusia x perfect..ade kurg sana sini..ainaa pun mcm tu..tp ainaa tau yg if semua org bleh give n take dgn kelebihan n kelemahan masing2,mesti x de mslh..n i think you're doing great now..just keep moving forward,who knows u might discover something extraordinary in the end.. :))

xoxo

ra|nbOw said...

hawa, aiman, mai, eyann. 1st of all, a million thanks dears~!!! wuuu. terharu~

hawa. hoho. no3. u 1st~! =P
haha. hawa~! hawa sweeet ok. and i love ur default pics d blog yg latest n 2nd latest. n i can imagine u being notty~! LOL. huuu. finally, ade pon org ske maths jgk! hee. yeah i know there's a lot of great ppl with their english, but at least, u're 1 of them. t hee. i'm strong..? am i? hurmm. owh yar. u were fat... but still u looks good. =] yeah... i know i have a bunch of supportive, honest friends n fmly~! wuuuu. hee. yup, i really3 love 2 c u with naim. owh yes hawa, 1 of the biggest thing that i like bout u the most is the way u elaborate & describing something/some1 u talked bout. haha. i like it~ grrr. thanks hawa~!!! XOXO

aiman dearie. salam~ hikkk. ye ke? owhh... baguslah kalo org nmpk jgk itu. eheh. kan aiman? itulah. kdg2 rase blh copy paste je blog aiman. sbb bnyk yg same. eheh. tq again dear =]]

mai!!!! momoyo!!! hee. salam. rinduuuuuu mai jgk~! comel? sweet? wakakak. mane ade la mai. tang mane tah tuh. huu. waaaaaa. mai3 thanks sgt utk penjelasan yg sgt motivational tuh n dgn penjelasan dr dr fazilah kamsah lg. hee. erm mai. u'll never stop from supporting me aren't u? wuu... mai. thanks, from the bottom of my heart~! =]]

eyann~!!! hee. sila2. owh, i adore u~! n u know rite kte pon same cpt adore org lain? haha. LOL. btol, kdg2 ble blogging ni, takot org pk bkn2. pdhal kte mksdkan n nada kte lain... hurm. aaa? dont deny? but... idk. sometimes. rase bnde tuh x btol. it's too good 4 me. eheh. wahaha. bout no1. a friend of mine, once told me the same thing. "u looked so happy but there's something missing" erkkk~ no2. i love ur's more than mine. cuz eyann lg matang~!!! ske pk jauh. so ble qila bace, qila pon akan berpk. hee. 3 & 4, i hope i am... 5, whe~~ itulah. my precious treasure. eheh. owh eyann. trimas~!!!

ra|nbOw said...

ainaa~~!!! likeable? erm. am i? i really do hope sooo. owh yer, kwn2 di internet skrng pon, i can say most of them, mmg kwn yg sis btol2 kenal. eheh. hurm...yup. i hope someday i'll. insya allah.

rendah diri utk fizikal. ainaa...ainaa comel. ainaa kecik molek n tak gemuk, tak kurus. putih melepak2 lg tuh~! eheh. itulah... tgk ade sorang kwn tuh cantik sgt3!!! almost perfect sbb die pandai + happy fmly + loving bf. tp...itulah. ramai org jeles and so on. ssh jgk jd cantik sgt. huuu~

ainaa. waaaaaaaaa. time mule2 sis bukak blog ainaa, time x bape rapat lg, kan ainaa bgtaw result spm ainaa. i'm soooooooo excited, n happy n nak nangis even though time tuh x bape rapat pon lg~! huuu. u did very well. x pe...rezeki x ke mane kan? hee. thankssss ainaa~!!! =]

fatinsuhana said...

salam~

qilahh,
u have nothing 2 worry about.
kelebihan tuh ada pd semua manusia.
whether they had discover it yet
or not.
normal la kan,
smua org ada baik buruk masing2.
tp qilah selalu nmpak kelemahan dulu..
sayang..
u're soo sweet n adorable.
n for me,
itu salah satu kelebihan.
mengapa?
coz ta semua org mcm tu.
ada org buat2 mcm tuh
supaya org suke mereka.
fake kan?
but u..
u look so natural n comfortable
with it.
seriously,
qilah mmg sgt3 sesuai keje
yg berjumpa ngn owg.
people will love u,
adore yr kindness.. =)

i bet,
if we met,
there's a lot about u
that i'll see.
the good one of course ;)

p/s- sapew yg kutuk2 qilah tuh?
mereka tuh perfect kew??
hishh.. tamo kwn la ngn owg2 gtuh
yunk.. aha.

-azwanbakhtiar- said...

gila btoi. 1-1 komen boleh buat entri baru. wakaka

NORKHALIDA IDRUS said...

qilah sy tetap syg awak wpoen awak rasa wak byk kekurangan.
syg tetap syg awk sbb awk qilah..
awak x jadi diri org laen..
jgn seekali nak rendah kn diri awk..

nurshafinaz maruai said...

friends don't do judging :)

missyanieanne said...

salam qila...
sediehhh lak baca post kali ni.. anyway, apapun about qila, sy bangga sgt dpt kwn cm qila.. no body's perfect..kekdg kta pn x nmpk d mna k'lbhn kta, d mna k'kurgn kta, d mna slp kta..smua kta serahkn pdNYA yg tentukan..apapun, sy dpt rsa qila sorg yg sgt kuat hdpi apa jua dugaan d dunia ni..qila b'untung cz qila ada apa yg org lain mybe x ada..psl SPM tu, actly rmai lg yg rsult dia mybe lbh teruk dr qila.. && i'm the one yg rsult SPM sgttt 'TERUK'... sbnrnya bla kta dpt smethg yg sgtt22 teruk,kta akn usaha utk m;ubahnya jd lbh baik even rmai ygn lbh baik [hope qila fhm mksd yanie].. apapun, yanie sgtt bangga dpt kwn mcm qila.. qila sorg yg ceria,baik,pramah,share apa yg qila tau&&caring sgt...even kta x penah jumpa && bru je knl d blog..tp hakktnya itu la AQILA AMIN yg yanie knal.. thanks being my friend qila... lurve u so muchhh.... && hope qila akan lbh yakin dgn diri qila.. =]

hawanasir said...

ahahaha. no syg. u 1st, because after planning we have still a lot more to catch in life ;)
kte tak sweet. kte kejam. bahahaha *baca ngan nada kejam* ahh default pic tu sume bohong sayang. magic camera ngan photoshop. hahaha. sure i like maths, i have to, sebab ayah kte cekgu maths. hahahaha -,-

nak taw x, i did a lot of mistakes in my younger days *echeyy cakap macam dah tua gle hahaha*. so in all, u r better than me. u wouldnt want to know what kinds of mistakes i did. hehe. qilah msti tak taw, reading ur bloggie i love reading all the aahhh weee huuuu and all other sound effects available. it makes it so fun to read! hahaha :D

dah2, enough feeling bad bout yourselves. keep urself positive coz u worth so much than what u think u r worth of ;)

ra|nbOw said...

salam. fatin~!!! hukk. bkn slalu nmpk kelemahan dlu...tp mmg tu je yg kte nmpk. agagag~~~ erm. btol jgk...ramai yg pretending. eheh. hurm...harap btol la, seswai keje jmpe2 org. i would love too. hee. owhhh. mereka yg kutok? eheh. biarlah die org. qila x leh buat ape. owhhh. itulah. hope someday dpt jmpe fatin... i really hope so~! thanks dear =]

azwan. wakakakka. taw x per. setuju amat dah bnde tuh~! haha

owh khalida. tawla awk ske sbb kte tembam kan? haha. eheh. kte syg awk pon sbb diri awk sdiri. hee. tQ~!

babe~!!! eheh. simple and meaningful enough. love ya~! thank u =]

yanie. itulah, kdg2 sdeyh jgk. eheh. tp x kesah sgt da. xleh buat ape. life goes on. hee. owh itulah. qila taw qila beruntung. sbb tu qila bersyukur seadenye. thanks 2 u too 4 being my friend~! i love u too~! thnks 4 ur support...

hawa~!!! ahahaha. at least u've found the right guy. wheee~~~ ok. reti gune photoshop~! kte bukak je reti...pastu tataw nak buat ape. wakaka. owhh ho. ur dad ckgu math. ok3~!!! is't fun? reading my blog...sometimes it just too long. haha. grrr~~~ it's ok. remind diri sdiri je. hee. ermmm..insya allah hawa. thanks a lot~!!! =]

nadiaizzah said...

qilah is qilah~ hihi..xtaw nk komen ape..dh pjg sgt org2 len komen..nk bc pn xlarat dh..

ra|nbOw said...

izzah. haha. rinduu ke mu~
yes3. qilah is qilah. LOL XD

fatynlicious said...

qila.

i think im wayyyy worst than you.
tapi, pedulik apa. mulut orang kita takleh nak tutup.

ingat, kita kalau nak hidup kat dunia ni berdasarkan dengan dengar kata-kata orang, dah lama kita akan mati.

so, go with our life. buat apa yg kita suka n nak. jangan ikut sangat kata-kata orang yang sebenarnya nak menjatuhkan kita.
zaman sekarang ni ramai kawan yang BAJET SUCI.

ohh pasal keyakinan diri ? fatyn rasa fatyn nyer self confident lagi rendah dari qila. n result spm pon gila jauh lagi terok dari qila yerlah bcuz im not MRSM student kan ? hehe.
but for me, as long as kita masih ada mood/keinginan untuk further study, apa-apa pon boleh jadi (:

tak semestinya owang yang result spm dia gempak, dia akan berjaya hingga ke akhirnya.

n fatyn lagi gemuk / tak lawa / lots lahhh.

tapi, my favourite blogger, HANIS ZALIKHA aka model / pelakon ada bagi tips utk meningkatkan keyakinan diri which are :

TIPS KEYAKINAN DIRI
Pertama, tiada siapa berbadan seperti Gisele Bundchen, even kalau Gisele beli magazine yang ada gambar dia pun dia terkejut badan dia macam itu. Keep that in mind and be happy.

Kedua, personaliti over physicality! Yang penting personaliti kita harus menarik, tak guna kalau muka gorgeous badan gorgeous tapi suka cakap pasal cuaca. Kalau suka sangat cakap pasal cuaca, pergi duduk dekat warung-warung kat Taiping betting hujan pukul berapa nak turun dengan apek-apek kat situ.

Ketiga, substance! Jangan cakap crap je (macam saya T_T), kenalah berilmiah sekali-sekala. Bila kita berpengetahuan, orang suka nak dengar what we have to say. People look up to you, and hang on to your every word. Tambah pengetahuan dengan membaca yeay! Oh Hanis suka baca Yahoo! Featured Articles sebab selalu tertipu dengan tajuk dia yang catchy T_T

Keempat, jangan pakai selekeh. Kalau orang yang selekeh terlebih confident pun annoying jugak.

Kelima, confidence is not about being full of yourself okay. Listen to what others have to say. Dalam banyak-banyak orang yang bersosial dengan saya, saya suka yang jenis bagi kita jalan nak cakap, ambil pendapat kita dengan serius, tapi still boleh gelak kepada benda yang patut gelak, sekali pun benda itu bodoh.

Keenam, kalau orang pandang kita, hargai. Jangan takut. Jangan sibuk fikir, "eh mesti dia tengok hidung aku yang besar nih". Instead go for "hmm dah agak dah buat selendang/rambut/mekap stylo macam nih, orang akan terpegun." Walaupun hidung kamu memang besar.

Ketujuh, perihal bentuk badan, kalau tak yakin dengan bentuk badan, cari jenis baju yang sesuai dan menonjolkan kecantikkan kamu. Stick to it if you have to. Biar sama style sepanjang zaman dan tak ikut fashion ke apa, janji selesa dan cantik dan beri kamu keyakinan! YA!

Kelapan, jaga kebersihan, selalu check bahu kot-kot ada kelemumur. Beli Head&Shoulders, pakai kat rambut ngan bahu sekali. Check kot2 nafas berbau. Check kot2 bulu telinga perlu trim (ni laki je kan? Dan kucing).

Kesembilan, takyah nak please/puaskan hati semua orang. The truth is,

"Kita tak boleh buat semua orang suka kita, sebab kita pun tak suka semua orang. Kan?" Hanis Zalikha.


Haha cute, konon-konon nak buat quote. Okay pastu selalu ingatkan diri sendiri yang kita ni cute. Eh tak tak. Itu perasan.

Whatever it is, just be true to yourself and jangan body concious sangat. Nobody is perfect, even Barbie pun ada basikal untuk dia jaga bentuk badan (-_-")


p/s: i love you lah hanis. :p

fatynlicious said...

yess komen fatyn paling panjang haha! belah la hang nora nak type lagik panjang dari aku buek :p

ra|nbOw said...

haha. rajen fatyn~! hee. owh thanks dear...bnyk petua dpt~! eeheh. =]

fatynlicious said...

hehe itu petua hanis zalikha.

for more info,

www.inibelogsaya.blogspot.com

.Nora Kacak. said...

buwekkkkkkkkk!
sumpah aku dop heran..
tgkla nnt aku punye essay.
wakakkaakka =]


awk, tgu eh, sy karang dari 6 dec until now., hahah =]

fatynlicious said...

hahaha
mentang-mentang event dah habis,
rindu la tu nak wat essay spm
wakakka (:

babylove said...

dear qila,
plz jgn ok cm i ag ok.!
stiap org de klbhn n klmhn sendri.

tiada manusia yg semurna.

ko pernah t'pk x.?
k..1st.bout da GMUK thing.
siyes..ko x gmuk pown.
n if btol ko gmuk pown pe ko nk rsu.
ko de t'pk x if ko kurus
n dpt body lawa.idup ko tng ke.?
ag epi dr skunk ke.?

2nd..gigi,bibir or mata.
da2..xyh dgr pe org ckp or ejek.
da tu yg TUHAN nk bg.
b'syukur je ok.
klu diorg kutuk or ejek
means diorg menghina ciptaan TUHAN ok.!

next bout ur personality.
qila..sme org de bakat masing2.
npe ko nk p'soalkn or pk bout sme neyh..plz..b'sykr ngan pe yg ko de.
bakat ko ag BESAR dr bakat len taw.
siyes...ak x tpu neyh.
da pnh wt fashion show.? wt iklan.?
gler gempak kwn ak neyh...!!!!
ak tatw pn ko pnh wt sme tuh.

so qila....
jgn la pk bkn2..
pe yg TUHAN bg de hikmah taw.
klu die bg je pe yg kte nak mayb bnd len yg akan jd..
mayb kte akan bongkak or lpe daratan.mayb kte lpe diri.
mayb kte byk menkn prasaan org.
mayb kte jd org plg jahat or nkl.
mayb kte slalu kutuk org..
mayb kte akan rendah2kn org len.

so.......
tammo pk bkn2 ag eh.
ak n sme kwn2 ko knl ko spe.
n bia la ko cm diri ko yg skunk cuz ko x hipokrit.
ok.?

tammo le k dlm2 sgt.
kn da dpt cm2 karangan neyh.
huhu.
stay cute.
u r da best!

the petite princess said...

owh qila,
agak lambat membace entry ini...
for me qila,
u r perfect
well, even kite ta penah kenal rapat mase kite sesame kat mrsm dulu,
but i know, u have a very kind heart.
qila, ur heart is a gift from god, n u took care of it very well.

i like reading ur blog. sebab qila tulis dari ati yg ikhlas. n sebab tu, i feel so closed nan qila, wlwpun kite ta penah rapat kat mrsm dulu.

u go gurl!
i love+adored u!
muahx!

ra|nbOw said...

fatyn. ahah. rindu spm? sumpah x nak da spm lg skali. wakaka.

adeq. huuu. thanks. nasib baik check email spam. da msk spam taW? huhu...

teha~! rajennye bace entry2 lame. eheh. heeeeeeeeee. malu3... i love u too. thanks a lot~!!!!! =]